You combine low openness with low conscientiousness, low extraversion, and high background anxiety, which produces a particular kind of withdrawn anxious life; small, structureless, heavy with worry that has no outlet, and quietly costly in ways that compound across years.
Honest reading of what is wrong, without the performance most people add to such reading. You sense what is genuinely difficult about a situation and you do not pretend otherwise. The few people who get past your reserve find someone whose interior is unusually accurate and unusually uncompromised.
You can mistake the worry for evidence that the situation is genuinely hopeless. Some of what you worry about is real; much of it is the wiring producing concern that has no proportional target. Telling the difference requires the structure and the relationships your wiring does not produce.
In a culture of performed optimism, your refusal to perform reads as a kind of integrity. The few who can stand the absence of cheerfulness find someone who does not bullshit and whose presence is unusually honest.
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